Hate Machine
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Raise your eyes
and raise your eyes
to the choking
and distaste
Raise your eyes
as it all comes
crashing down.
Try to breathe in
and remember 
yourself.

Looking for a way out
And you're sinking.

	I am the flagship 
	of moments
	of failed actions.

Down

	They poured us a thick cup
	of diversion
	and we choke on the hope
	as it slides down

	Do you feel so safe?

Down

	Convenience shot
	this vision in the head
	and from the wounds
	conviction bled.

	Do you feel so safe?

Try as you might
to scramble to attention
true words 
weigh you down
and you're
looking
and you're 
searching
and you're 
sinking

Down

I am the flagship
of moments
of failed actions
and I am the flagship
of everything
inconsistent

	Looking for a way out.

It's gonna bring you down

	It's time to tear these idle hands
	from our throats
	we'll drop our anchors deep
	and hope

It's gonna bring you down

(sad, sad 
 inconsistent
 self-loating
 hate machine)


Yellow and Fed
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Touch me

	Bolt down the role
	Swallow the parts
	with such uncomfortable ease
	Such uncomfortable ease

Touch me

	Delusions serve
	Maintenance of an oppression
	With a suppression
	Of what we really wanted to be
	Of what I really wanted to be

Touch me

	Hammer the nails
	Shape the clay
	With a hateful hand
	Of history

Touch me

	Rendered soft-spoken
	I cannot speak
	I've lost my voice

	Bolted on
	Strapped down
	Locked

Touch me

(Go ahead, put
 your hands on
 me bastard
 It's dayglow obvious
 what I'm trying 
 to say, you thought.
 Fucking wrong
 answer
 Touch me, don't
 you touch me

 How you going to
 smile through all
 those broken
 teeth?
 Easy. You never
 listen get
 your hands off me
 get memories
 out of my mind
 so my soul
 dance with glee over
 your death
 dance your
 precious gift
 back into something
 I can let stop
 choking the life
 out of my wet eyes.)


Manufactured Images of Jesus Christ
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It was your hands
that reached down my throat
to pull up lips
that seemed
to chatter in circles

Moving ever so close
to nothing,
sinking ever so close 
to pain

Sit down
the chairs move
so I must sit in one
to claim an identity

And yes, no more
will my teeth be rotted
by these words
subdue my shallow reality
and blank away
a false front
till next time

You ask me,
and I don't move
my lips just chatter
endlessly around

Now comes the time
to let you go into yours
and you never looked around
to see
yes blinders
were with you
the latter part of life
who installed them
I know we are born
with them
did yours come over 
your eyes
with time?
They shouldn't have 
your eyes
should have
been wide

So wide.

You installed them
you misplaced your vision
your one-way eyes

You made it possible
not to see anything else, you
you were the one
you misplaced your eyes
and brought the blinders
that marked your vision
in one direction

You were the one

I miss you

Good bye.


Weaponizing
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If I could see
sharpening of skills 
to watch you
hone them down
straighten your ego
never to be
dull again
bang out the 
imperfections

no

Shape the mold
of disguise

	We're turning our backs
	on your platform

Wield this weapon
to see it shine

	Your ends are yourself

And in this moment
look behind

	In a policy adopting
	this world as a rival

To all the lives
you've scared before

Packed with words
hollow words

	Your comments are sent
	in futile defense of your ego
	your perception is bent
	to compliment your ego

Do you want an answer
you've got an answer
for everything.

And these hands
that hold us down
are they ours
and these arms
that push us back
are they ours
and these hands
that twist my motives
are they mine
and these arms
that wrap themselves around me
and won't ever let me see
and feel
are they mine
and these words
that fuck my mouth up
are they mine?

Backwards twisted truths
in a language of your own
you create endless exemptions
for behavior you condone
and the forwarded lie
now provides
the framework for the facts
as it comes down the line
again and again
and with your reiteration
of the me me me
I must appease
bricks and bolts in framework
of greed
that's all I see
and if I asked you to stop
would you stop
and if I asked 
would you stop?

Girders, I will erect
bolted down in consistence
foundation layed and set
locked in persistence

And if I asked you to stop
would you stop
and if I asked 
would you stop

We're not asking

Stop.

Why the fuck do you defend it
this competition ethic
yours is the exception
not the rule

Packed with words
hollow words

Your comments are sent
in futile defense of your ego
your perception is bent
to compliment your ego

Do you want an answer?

Your answer

No.


A Hole Into
-----------

As we quietly burn a hole into

Burn this down

Memories of the sliding scale
has returned
awaiting a destination
But I'm not finding solace
in these material foundations
I'm not finding solace
in material

Don't you understand?

No one understands

Making sure 
no one ever sees
a rule of will
self-assured dictation
I'll never fall apart
these self-assured dictations
will never fall apart

With stones at my feet
and barriers locked in place
and we don't show 
anyone what we know
we don't show 
anyone what we feel

Locked in place
we don't show 
what we know
what we feel

Burn this down

No one ever knows
no one ever shows.


Haloed Eyes
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I've tried to nail them down
but still they move
and they won't 
show their faces
and I can't 
grab the arms
coming from the hands
that blind my sight
to remove 
the ceremonial mask

Cripple me

Never move

Haloed eyes

Move

(Perfect this time
 I can't move
 I want to move
 move
 please move)

Not to shake 
what they say
I cannot see
but it touches me

And with baited hands
and baited lines
churn my waters
to bring about my truth
and in the end
I can't see your eyes
and I can never justify
the way my eyes
never moved to meet yours
I can never justify
why I couldn't see you
why I've never been able to see you
I've never been able to see
why can't I see
why can't my eyes move?

(I just couldn't
 see through my
 self)

Never move

Haloed eyes.